Sunday, May 07, 2006

shall i go back to central?? i feel that like i'm always stuck. i always say that i wanna be a sheperd, wanna start a cg in school. but look at what am i doing ok. just look, i'm doing everything but this ok.

but i dont wanna go back to central now, cuz it seems like i dont grow , thoguh the fact is yes, i'm not growing. and the fact that i'm still in west is rathering comforting myself that at lease i'm still in west. knwo what i mean?

and the truth is that. i'm fucking sinning now. and i dont wana sing the praise and agree to the pastor and clap when there's converts when i'm fucking sinning. if you know what i mean. i'm at this crossroad now. whereby i'm suppose to decide when which road i'm gonna take. forget about rachel and go back to church. let everything be. or just continue what i'm doing now. continue liking rachel. when there's no point of doing so cuz the whole world knows that rachel wont come back to me ever again.

and i feel like just letting it be. i dont wanna do anything. i'm so tired. of thinking about this and that and get all upset over things that's happening.

fuck. did i mention that i hate making choices?? and i hate it when my life is screwed. and this is exactly what's happening to my life. BLOOD SCREWED UP!!!

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